11.12.13

Sawyer James


On the night before Winters arrival at 6:22pm November 6th 2013, they placed a 5lb 15oz miracle into our arms, nineteen days early and only three hours after arriving at the hospital. He was perfection. We called him Sawyer.


I never expected him to feel so familiar to me. The way he kicked and wiggled in the days following his birth so much reminded me of the movements I felt in my belly. Holding him felt so natural, so easy, like he belonged in my arms. Feeding him felt like déjà vu, as if I'd done it before. From the very beginning, I knew him, he was mine.


It's now been a little over a month since bringing our sweet boy home and we've settled comfortably into our new normal. Already we're making hilarious memories of projectile poops on dad and baby spit up down the shirt. Since Danny went back to work a week and a half after the 6th, Sawyer and I have started to build our daily routine. Cold coffee and soggy cereal is a common occurrence in the morning, and some days the sweat pants don't come off until just after noon. Our days have been filled with snuggles, burps and bouncing, with me rushing around the house during naps to throw in a load of laundry or brush my hair and teeth.


Sawyer is easy on me at night. We wake up only twice, once around three and another around six. This is our mostly quiet "us" time. There's something incredibly peaceful about feeding and cuddling with your baby in the smallest hours of the morning. The only light in the room comes from the salt rock and I can just see well enough to make out the look of total calm and content on Sawyer's face. It makes being woken up from a deep sleep completely worth it.


I was pleasantly surprised to find how quickly each cry and fuss would become familiar to me. I can tell after just a few moments if it's a hungry cry, a burp cry, a poop cry, and so on. I was also amazed to learn I can help the little guy pass gas and poop when he needs it. With just a little patience and some baby yoga, Sawyer's tummy troubles are solved!


They always say that time speeds up once you start a family and I can already feel the days flying by. My little 5 pounder is getting chubbier everyday and growing like a weed. Before I know it my newborn will be a toddler! It's a bit of a sad thought but exciting all at once. All I can do is try my best to capture each special moment through my lens so I'll always have a picture diary to look back on... and to show to his first girlfriends!